heartbreaking weekend

wow this weekend just past has been awful, all we knew was that this fri aug 20th was goin to be the anniversary of our friend Dave Mathews which is hard enough to have to relive , but little did we know we were gonna go thro alot more !

A Very good friend of mine bonita ,her mom has been battling cancer for the last few months and i went and visited her in hospice sat, it was heartbreaking to see a very hardworking and amazing mother to her 4 children, in so much pain she had to be sedated the whole time .. when i left i told her goodbye and that i loved her that was her last night she went to be with jesus that next morning and i got the text. my heart goes out to her family and thankful that she is in no more pain. its very hard to understand and belive and i couldnt even imagine losing my mom at a young age .. we love u judy and u are greatly missed <3

well we thought and hoped that , that wouldve been the last bad news for a while when not long after thingking that sun morning got a fone call from my grandma wanting to talk to dad( he was here going to help me around the house) that my uncle danny passed away on sat nite or sun morning .. dont want to go into details but this was a very unexpected death and absolutly heartbreaking. i remember as a kid goin out on the boat with him and out family fishing or going to his house and watching movies he had a HUGE collection of , or him coming to our house and just visiting and of course when grandpa was here the thurs nite speggtti dinners and grandma and grandpas house, i dont understand the reason and its very hard to except his passing but he is GREATLY missed and loved !! if only we could have told him that..
and last but not least chris family is not talking to us , and as much of a relief that is in some ways its more sad i think than anything , they dont want chris to be with me anymore and contiued to say there opinions and were very disrespectful. so no i cant let my children or myself be around that but we were hoping they couldve just respected us and so we could have some kinda relationship doesnt mean u have to agree with things but we cant allow the kind of talk or stress around us or the kids so they choose instead to not talk .. i guess if thats the only way it would stop tho its best ,idk .. but hopfully one day things will change and ppl wont tear others down but instead lift each other up or if theres nothin nice to be said not to say anything at all .

well heres to hoping there is noone more bad news this yr .. God is going to do great things i kno it its just not knowing when and how long will the bad last before there is good .. ill look at the good things in my life and know HE is in control !
i will say iam very blessed that iam not depressed, see iam the type that deff has that promblem when bad things happen or theres the least bit of stress and thank god he has lifted that from me even through all this bad i can look at the good and trying to help others through what there going tho is helping me get though it also if that makes sense lol ... well next time ill prolly be talking about our trip to oregon unless i think of sumthin else lol yep goin to oregon next week , deff think we could use it now from going thro all of this <3nicole <3